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by Space Fiend

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1.
sleep 03:11
there is a black river running down over my head i can feel the cold water running down my back there is a black mountain a silhouette in the night that casts a shadow over the river i aim to reach higher draw me in
2.
buzz 02:42
there is a light shining down into my room an unfamiliar glow something i cannot know from somewhere i’ve always been afraid of there is nothing for you here sleeping through the day and making noise comfort and security are no longer here aware of everything around me and in the dark i feel you standing here i feel you pulling me in there is nothing for you here there is no comfort in the night
3.
out 03:02
everything falls over all the time i want to love you all but it’s mental suicide i would lie awake on the hard floor for that whole night and stare into the black until my room got filled with sunlight i try hard not to think about the bad things in my life impending sense of doom that comes crawling in at night a presence in the room that tries to take control i fall into the dark every night and try to keep away but i’m afraid, i don’t know after 2 sleepless at 4 in the morning i found my body floating, through the dry air out into the cold night, my body trapped forever floating out over the suburbs, my nightly prayer we don’t know where we go at night we want to flow with the water guided by unstoppable ephemeral paths out past the freeway and down to the stream
4.
bird 03:54
i aim to reconcile i killed 4 the very 1st time 2day but i’d heard that was impossible but i heard it hit my bumper as it tried to fly away i drove home to feel alone nothing had really changed i’m gonna climb that mountain tho i may nvr reach the peak i’m gonna make my way up and learn to float you cannot reconcile it is ageless, voiceless, nameless endless, endless i saw it for a second a silhouette under the light but it was not my time and i wonder how i could manage to focus my body and mind and finally make my way up
5.
am 02:07
there is nothing natural about being locked in a room with a world you can connect with and hours of distractions and a bad taste in your mouth tells you there's nothing left 2 lose i try hard not to be too cynical about this silent state of mind but i know that there's alternatives to unanswered questions like you can get yours so i can go ahead and get mine and everything's a machine including this guitar and the songs i sing and i know that its impractical to try and fight against it but i just feel like something here doesn't want a part of me just watch me i can see it the high water mark we got right to the top and then we faded away and i can feel it moving in me everywhere i go every single day it keeps me moving it is my lifeline keeps me working against apathy yeah we can get there we can get there before i die when things are coming to an end i'd climb the tallest mountain within close proximity and spend my final days there looking out on everything and wonder to myself "is this really what it means to be free?" no there's nothing natural there's nothing natural there's nothing natural and that's fine by me there's nothing natural nothing was ever natural there's nothing natural i think there's more that we can be
6.
push 03:28
i'm here because i'm here i come to make sounds with my hands filled with blood and bad ideas out of my head and into another come into my home come into my garden come into my home come into my garden i aim to reach higher i slide across the landscape events come and meet me then cease to exist i was here but now i'm not aiming to reach my own objective reality and i feel the love of everyone around me i am the snake come into my garden i am the snake come into my garden come into my garden come into my garden come in come in come in come in
7.
move 03:34
Listen to me i wanted to be free going up to the country metal and rubber over concrete The people that i love i can feel moving in me Liana says sit by the side of the mountain by the train tracks running by the river Concrete connecting me to you to you to you to you I found a way to get away In music and in love and peace I found a way to get away It’s a privilege and a responsibility Drivin up the country When the lake gets hit by lightning in the storm There are people in my life I am grateful to be loved and feeling warm Driving up Driving up Driving up with my honey driving up Hey whats up? Hey whats up? Driving up to the country Driving up Waking up Waking up Waking up with my honey Waking up Driving up Driving up Driving up to the country driving up
8.
leave home 07:03
summer sun is running out dead eyes staring through an open window no time for comfort, resignation you never seem to come around, no more and i’ve been tired i’ve been knocked down and something’s out there staring back at me i’m going over, i’m going down and the summer sun still brings an unrelenting heat catharsis when will you come around, come around i needed something to breathe through i might be gone but i will soon be coming back to town just in time to bleed over you rain hits pavement in outside world i close the window to keep dry inside time moves slower, bleeding out when time moves fast it’s gonna bleed you dry an education, get a job kick your addiction, try hard to survive no time for comfort, resignation no time for comfort, no time to feel alive catharsis i want to be around, be around i want to be someone who can breathe i might be sick but i will still be coming back to town maybe then i will finally feel free some things take a long time to change some things just grow i really love you i really love you

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all songs are original except for the end of "move" which is a cover of "driving up" by Frankie Cosmos

all sounds made by jacob weingast except for the gang vocals on "bird" which were recorded by Zack Schiavetta, Olivia Quinones, Ann Akamiokhor, Grace Wynter, and Evan Stapleton

all songs recorded in new rochelle from february 2016 to july 2016

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released August 17, 2016

thanks to mom and dad and friends and family and liana and the silent barn

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